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Saturday, August 20th, 2005
4:19 am	I am reading a book called "War without Hate" about WWII in North Africa. In it mentions that there is a populat myth the German General Erwin Rommel was never "anti-nazi." I have always respected him, not only as a military innovator but also as a person too. He was known for directly disobeyeing Hitler in regards to executing prosioners. He was always chiviurous to POWs and the English and American dead. He would always give them the same honors of the German dead and buryt he two side-by-side. He was much more chivolrous and respectful then his English counterpart, Montgomery. This got me thinking. Should we judge people based on our values and society, or based on theirs. For instance Abraham Lincoln is considered by many to be one of the greatest Presidents. But he said that he wouldnt free a single slave if it meant keeping the Union together. Thomas Jefferson wrote that "All men are created equal" but he had a plantaion of slaves. There are examples of "great men" doing abhorrent things. Are they still great? Do the end result outweigh the means? Stalin killed 10 million of his own people, but kept the Nazi's from getting stategic resources that would have helped them win the war. Horrible tyrant or Facist -Fighting Hero? As far as Rommel goes, I will still hold him in high regard. I dont condone racism at all and I think that what the Nazi's did was a sin that all humanity must atone for. I will say that despite his association with the Nazi's and the politcs needed for him to get ahead. he was still a great person that was in a bad place at a bad time and did the best thing that he could. What do you think? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
4:16 am	I havent update here in awhile. It so much esier to do so on myspace. I realize that this may be considered heresy to some, but at work myspace is a client, so we can access it. Livejournal is not a client and the only reason that one would go on would be to blog, which you shouldnt do at work, well if work cares that is. So, submitted for your perusal, some of my more recent myspace posts: It is once again that time of day when stillness permeates outside and i am kept company by the slight tapping sounds of fingers on keyboard. I am surprised that i havent had any crisis of conscience lately. Everything has been going fairly smoothly. The new job is keeping me busy. Perhaps that is the key. If you are busy you have no time to think or reflect. I can easily see two side of the coin on this. One is that since i am stimulated mentally and nothing overtly negative or potentially negative has occured then i have no inclination to have my mind wonder to those dark areas that harbor doubt and regret. But where does the general "check yourself before you wreck yourself" inclination occur. You need to tap into those parts of your mind occasionaly just to make sure you dont stray off the beaten path. An example: I have a friend who has way too much free time and ends up participationg in the game of self introspection multiple times a day. Now, dont get me wrong i think that self introspection and realization are great things. In certain doses. Well this person is constantly reinventing himself. When i say constantly i mean every 6 months. And i mean drastic reinvention. Moving to forign countries for 3months reinvention. I, personally, dont think that is healthy. We have all gone through periods of reinvention. I used to dress in Khaki's with the legs rolled up in some sort of psudeo New Wave style and was way more bitter cynical. Now its jeans, mostly band shirts, and weather permitting a sweatshirt with a happy-go-lucky attitude, most of the time. In the warehouse at Circuit City, it isnt that mentally stimulating (hence i ma typing this on the computer) so here is where i get the most reflective and internal. With mixed results. As always i encourage opinions. I dont get to talk this stuff out as much as i used to with Bo and Tim, so i dont really have my bounce points anymore. (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 17th, 2005
1:03 pm	Remiss I have been lazy/busy/preoccupied. But something got me back here. It is written I am bitter therefore i post. That with me is true. Things have been going fairly well. I am in a semi stable relationship once again. Although most would argue that the relationship never ended, i would say that they are full of crap. My friends are going through relatively stable times thank goodness. I know that i need a rest from drama bullshit and i think they do to. Work blows and i cant stand material consumerism. I have met a few new people. Some i like some i am not too sure about yet. I am trying to move out. E3, Star Wars and Hitchhikkers is coming out, so my excitement is slowly building. Basically i am here and it goes well. How are you? Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Whishing (I had a photograph of you) - Flock of Seagulls (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 11th, 2005
4:12 pm	Mardi Gras Recap I need a vaction to recover. After spending a week in New Orleans to celebrate Fat Tuesday i realize that i need to know what is in drinks before having 4 of them. Just a quick blow-by-blow of the week arrived sun early morning roamed a bit, but slept mostly during the day. That night went walking up and down Burbon with Hand Grenades. Hand Grneades are billed as teh most poweful drink on Burbon. They wont tell you what the ingredients are but we found out that 2 of them are Everclear (illegal in California) and Bacardi 151. I didnt find out til after i had already had 4. Eventually after stumbling up and down burbon, and listening to the cover bands that naturally inhabit all of the bars i stumbled up the room. Thankfully the hote was on Burbon so i was good to go. After "napping" in the bathroom for a bit i was moved to a bed and crashed. I felt like crap the next morning and was told i had been puking bits of blood. Yay! Monday i didnt move until 6pm. We wondered up and down, hung out at the Cats Meow (a karaoke bar) and at a few other bars. I roamed around on tuesday morning, just looking at the french Quarter. It was pouring rain, but i was ok with that. I really like the architecture and the ambiance of the French Quarter. I never really got out of that are to see the rest of New Orleans, but in talking to people, maybe i didnt want to. i got the serious impression that the rest of the city was very rundown and potentially unsafe. Tuesday night, after we saw a parade of druids, led us to a bar called the Dungeon. Very Cool place. It doesnt open 'til midnight and it has a very medievel/Gothic feel to it. the Bathrooms are hidden behind secret doors, which i thought was awesome, but if you were drunk and had to use them, then i would feel bad for you. Wednesday i hung out with someone that one of my friends met. this girl worked in a bar as her morning job and she and my friend had interest in each other, so we ended up hanging out with her and her friends. Her bar was 1/2 block from the hotel. I ended up hanging out there from 12 noon to 6pm doing nothing but shots. Apparently when they are slow at this bar, or bored then drink. i was there talking to thme so therefore i was also privy to this pasttime/ritual. I got wasted, but didnt realize it until 5 and a half hours in. I finally stumbled back to the hotel (before dusk i might add) and crwled into bed for the next 22 hours or so. i didnt drink for the rest of the trip, but didnt get over the hangover until sunday. Thursday night when i finally got up, we went on a haunted History tour. I loved it. The guide was knowledgeable and told of first hand accounts of many experioences. I cant wait to go back and check them out again. That night was spent repacking and preparing for going home and saying good-bye to the people we met. Friday we finished up by buying things for people at home and generally trying to see what we missed. Since i was still hungover i felt weird all day. it didnt bother me that much until the trip from Dallas back to Los Angeles. Of all the times i have flown i have had 2 terbulent flights. One coming from Tokyo and this one. AS and added bonus i was hungover on both. This Dallas one taked teh cake thought. It was jouncing about and shaking of course, but then, oops dropped 250 ft. ack. The only thing that made me feel better was that i was trying to make the girl next to me feel better because she told me she tended to get really motion sick. She was right. It was a good trip. I dont think that i will go back to Mardi Gras itself because i didnt like the attitudes of lots of the guys. There are ways of engadging in Mardi Gras festivites without beeing totally disrespectful. I would love to gp back to the French Quarter however. as a side note: after spending about $900 total on the trip i get my car towed from a party in Hollywood on sat night. I had to pay $233 to get it out of impound. I was unhappy because the whole thing was shady as hell. That was teh trip in a nutshell. If you have any questions feel free to ask. (For those that have My Space... Yes this is a copy/paste job.) Current Mood: content Current Music: Iggy and the Stooges "Raw Power" (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 26th, 2005
8:19 am	Time to write Ok i fianlly have a second for life update. I had a birthday. I enjoyed the BBQ, but was slightly bummed that more people didnt show. I guess im used to throwing the 250+ person party instead of just the 40 person get together. We had fun so thats all that matters. The main thing that was notable about my birthday was this sense of emptiness. Birthdays arent that much of a big deal. To me its just an excuse to throw a party. I think it goes back to my senior year in high school. 2 of my classmates were killed in a bad car wreck a few days before my birthday. The one that i was closer to had his locker about 4 or 5 away from mine, so that week his locker was wrapped and there candles and stuff around it as a mini memorial. I walked in on my birthday (which i had forgotten was my birthday) passed his locker, was deep in thought about that situatuion, go to open my locker and my locker is wrapped too. I was... confused. The fist thought was, "im not dead." I looked around and saw a big banner that basically said HappY birthday to me. The only thing that i could do was look down at his locker and not feel right. One of my friends is convinced that my birthday is a bad day. Northridge Earthquake, Huge Forest fires in Alta Dena, Kobe Earthquake, start of Desert Storm ground war. Interesting coincidences at best. This year my thoughts kept going back to my parents. For those that dont know, i am adopted. The thought kept running through my head of what they were doing, do they remember what day it is, do they recall me at all, do i have brothers and sisters. It was 27 years ago so i figure that they have there own lives. I want to find them. But i am open to the fact that they havelives without me and if they dont want me in their lives thats fine, just let me get some updated medical records, tell me what happened, and we can go our seperate ways. In other news, i leave saturday night for New Orleans. I'm gone for a week. hopefully i will remember what happens so that i can sahre some of the adventures. Current Mood: copacetic Current Music: "Reach For the Sky" Social D (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 27th, 2004
9:47 am	YIR cont... ok, now that i totally forgot where i was... this year has been predictable and unexpected. Gina of course was most definately unpredicted. that was a constant for over 5 years and just ended as a kick in the nuts from your best friend (which with my friends i should probably expect) Moroever, Tim going to NY was unexpected, but him returning shortly was massively expected. Hanging out with Adi and Joe, and to a lesser extent Mike has been pleasently unexpected. i have a short term memory so please forgive me. im trying to remember a ton of crap. City of hero;s was a blast and hanging out with all the East Coast guys was great. E3 always good. The Hallowwen party that Stephen and i... attended. The Mohawk. btw, Tim is trying to get me to get it again because he thinks it makes me a "chick magnet." I think tim is addled. Caoching was definately fun and it gave me further motivation to do that teaching thing. I enjoyed working at Spotlight. I think there were a couple of kids that i get my point across and i know that Chinese girl walked into school knowing slang. she might not know how the difference between a verb and a predicate, but dammit she know's "Whatsgoingon?" said exactly how its spelled. :) Seeing some high school chick going sown on some dude at the tutoring center was interesting, but didnt give me much hope for the future. In fighting occurred but it seems that all is quite on the Western Front in teh group right now. Its good. dammit back to work.... Current Mood: working Current Music: "Kind of Light" The 88 (Comment on this)
7:13 am	Year in Review Since i was a kid i always felt like Christmas was the end of the year. I dont really know why, maybe i didnt like the idea of going back to school as starting the new year or what. Whatever the logic (ha, me; logic, bah!) i always ended up reflecting on Christmas. This year was no different. So here are some of my thoughts: Biggest Event: obvious. i had my heart broken. first time and hopefully last. i still love her. Other memeorable or noteworthy events include actual graduation (i cant wait for my diploma with Arnold's autograph to come.) The Weddings (i think ill get into that later) taking stats, which wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. getting in and out of D&D, and Stephens Spycraft game. It was a good job. Best time: not sure. i had a lot of good times but i think that the best weekend was 4th of July. Yes there was some drama at the end, but it was still a blast and EVERYONE got blasted. i miss Uncle Scott. and how did jon the bartender that never drinks get mixed up with a family that has a natural BAC of .10? That leads me to the weddings. Once again i would like to say Congradulations to Jon & Liz, Dave & Dae, and Jeff & Cami. There were all alot of a fun, very memorable and i was honored to be invited to all of them. On a side note: Congradualtions to Steve and Angie on the house. when is the "pool" party again (hehe im getting yelled at for that one) I was glad to get reaquainted with some old friends. I was also glad to have the spark of volunteerism rekindled. Since high school and ealry college i havent really done that much of volunteering but this year i got back into it. Much to the chagrin of Catholic school parents, but coaching track and football actually gave me a new look on some things. thanks kids, you little bastards. Crap i will continue... stuff to do at work Current Mood: grateful Current Music: "I Predict a Riot" Kaiser Chiefs (Comment on this)
6:48 am	Christmas Ok i tried to do this post yesterday, but my computer died after 20 minutes of writing so i just dropped it off at Tims. Im at work with NOTHING to do, so i will try again. It didnt feel like Christmas this year. Alot of people have been expressing the same feelings. I dont know why. The last few years i havent been excited about being home for Christmas because my mom get super stressed which i only aggrivate. My saving grace was Tim's family on Christmas Eve and Gina's family on Christmas Night. Even that didnt excite me this year. Doing both of those got me to feeling as close to Christmas as i have but it still didnt give me the warm fuzzies. and yes i did go to Gina's. I know im gonna catch shit for that but she is still one of my closest friends and as it turns out it looks like her family knows me better than my own. For instance, from her and her family i got a Vandals hat, the Star Wars DVD set, a Cal Poly Alumni sweatshirt, a nice longsleeve pullover, and the Dodgeball movie. From my family: $100 for my leather jacket and a passport/id carrier for traveling. I am equally thankful for both and i dont expect anything, but that is a prime example of who knows me better. I did enjoy seeing tim's family again, but it felt more likie a general gathering instead of a "Christmas Party." I have the feeling that is is because of the drastic change that recently occurred. In my mind i should have been making an announcement instead of avoiding certain questions. Thankfully they didnt get asked that often. Anyway, Christmas nioght was alot of fun. Joe, Tim and I went to Club Bang. The same place as Clockwork. They played music from the 80s, 90s and some really new stuff in the main room. the front room was 60s/70s funk and soul which was a good change and the back room was hip-hop. I didnt really visit there that often because i was too busy in the other rooms. I alos realized that i dont have the testicular fortitude to randomly ask a girl to dance. Here is my way of thinking: My strong point is personality instead of looks. Its hard to have personality on a loud dance floor. It kills the wit when she yell's "WHAT." Anyway there were also two of them dancing togetehr (insert strongbad voice,"Oh, there's TWO of them!) and from the observation that i did it looked like one wasnt going to ditch the other. I tried to get Joe to be a wingman, but that failed. Oh well. It was still a good time. I think we are going back some point soon. Current Mood: slowly getting back to normal Current Music: "Hysteria" Muse (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 20th, 2004
6:56 pm	Why cant i be one of those guys that just doesnt give a crap? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
9:37 am	Life continues So my week of starting at 3am begins. Im sleepy to say the least. Christams is less than a week and i havent really begun to purchse. grr commercialism. What would you do if you think a 40 year old man (with a wife) took sexual advatage of a 28 year old who was completely drunk? would you use the word "rape"? I hate assholes and drama. So that is what i have been thinking about for the last few days. I called her yesterday to how she was in a sober state. No answer. Should i call today? hmmm. Hopefully Adi will have talked to her to avail some fo my fears and concerns. Believe it or not, as callous and jerkish as i maybe to others, i deeply care about my friends. they are my family. The friends that i dont see as often are like cousins i guess. Well if this gets resolved i will fell much better. Current Mood: hungry Current Music: "I am the Orange Man" Tim singing about his hair (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 16th, 2004
5:50 pm	I want to write about alot, but my mood (which has altered massively in teh last hour from semi normal to severly angsty and mildly depressed for no explainable reason) wont let me. Still i pluck away. I am currently using self censorship as was talked about a month or so ago on dae's board. I dont want o but i also dont know who is reading. hmmm. well at lest the "i dont know feeling" remains constan in my journal. just a small funny fyi: in august i had some grandiose ideas that included marriage. The tuesday that just passed was going to be the day that i asked. I was bummed yes, but not nearly as much as i thought i would be. Is it because i have distractions? i think maybe. Is it also that i have come to grips more or less with the situation? at times, yeah. Is it because i have been working my ass tot he bone that half the time i am too tired to think? to an extent. I know that there are other reasons but i havent figured them out yet. I hate this time of year. No, i take that back i dont hate it. It just... bothers me. i think thats it. i dont like the commercial aspect, but i like giving people things that they will enjoy. I dont really want anythign except for things that i consider too expensive for people to buy for me. Its a big ball fo fluffy goo and i feel surrounded. Blegh. off to the mall as soon as tim gets done taking a crap. i want to feel normal again Current Mood: blah Current Music: "Mayor of Simpleton" XTC (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
11:32 am	Intrinsic need There should be a small computer disk or something that you can give some one when you meet them or date them or whatever. It would make life so much easier. For instance mine might say something like: "Sucker for bad jokes and puns. Bluntly honest, but usually doesnt mean to be a jerk. Semi obsessive, but more concerned with throwing himself totally into something he is interested in. Bad at sports but likes them. Clipper Fan. Usually gets pissed or irate, but usually over it quickly. Dyslexic at typing. Cant read sublte signs from the opposite sex, so dont try. Appreciates total honesty." Something like that would be helpful because people would be able to better understand each other, and hopefully be better to live with each other. I think there is a recent case of this, but not sure if its a "damn i screwed up again" or something else that i cant think of right now. haha i would also add to my file "optimistic when it comes to most things. Pessimistic when it comes to himself." What would you files say? Ask around on LJ, see what people think. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: "Reach For the Sky" Social D (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 11th, 2004
9:22 pm	Perseverance hour 30something. I woke up at 6am friday. Here it is 9pm saturday. you do the math. i cant. ok i cheated and had 2 one hour naps. i have this thing where i can never turn my phone off. i am rewarded by phone calls. i dont mind, but sleepy hurts after awhile. Bought an iPod today. recently realized that music is one of the most important things im my lfe. lately i have noticed that songs can change, well maybe not change, but have a great effect on my moods. I hear Kaiser Chiefs "I predict a riot" and i get all bouncey. I listen to old R&B and get all sad and lonely and wonder about lost lost loves, mostly the recent one, but occassionaly the others as well. Speaking of which i have to call Selena, its been awhile since i last talked to her. Its saturday night, i feel like a pud because im not out having fun. There is a bunch of stuff to do, but since i am hallucinating at the computer, i dont think its a good idea to drive. Went to a Catholic Elememantary (sp?) School's Christmas Faculty Party. Had a big red Mohawk. Danced with my 5th grade teacher. She's a nun. Danced with someone who i went to school with for 12 years. I liked it. I guess i was a jerk in school. Apperently that hasnt changed much. I dont want to be. I just cant stand beating around the bush. F PR. haha that is good coming from me. 2.2 days of music in the ipod so far. 17 GB to go. Hi. Make holiday season stop. just be cool with people all year. ack so tired Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: "Lost in a Supermarket" The Clash (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 9th, 2004
9:45 am	Judgement Call Hola life, and happy birthday Stephen. haha old man I hate people that judge. But i do it all the time, both positive and negative. So i guess im a hypocrite (i dont like them either). I was at a party on saturday night and it was a good party, but it seemed that i was out of my element. I still consider myself a kid and these peole were 26 to 30 years old and had a sense of style that while not preppy, it was a nice casual. quite different from my jeans, sweatshirt, lazy mohawk and black hat uniform. They were totally cool people but i had a feeling that it was going to be one of those parties were you latch on to the few people you know. I turned out to be wrong (thankfully) and made a new friend that i have kept in touch with. This friend in particular was well dressed and had a certain sense of class, something that i believe i coulod use improvement with. I looked at Rudy when that group of people walked in and immediately said something to the effect of wow, were are out of our element or out classed or something. It ended up being the group that we takled to the most. I hate being an ass and the last party (Halloween) i was thinking the same thing before we went, but it ended up that we didnt know anyone so we had to hang out with everyone. It helped that everyone was drunk, but it was still super cool. Stop Judging, or maybe i should do it more because the times i do it it turns out well, hmmm.... But no its bad andi do need to stop. but how? Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: "Y-Control" Yeah Yeah Yeahs (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 4th, 2004
5:51 pm	General Post Hi world, how are you? Im ok, things have been going generally better. I found a room to rent for $500 a month, but decided that i wanted to save my money for a potential trip to NY in like Feb or Mar, then move out. I It has been so cold lately that i have to de-ice my windshield in the morning. i live in LA, i dont even know what that concept is or how to do it right, nor should i. Hey East Coast, dont take my friends then turn around and give me your weather. bastards. btw if anyone is interested in a good record store KAOS Records is the place. It used to be located in downtown Covina and i went the other day to peruse since i actually had cash. I turned the corner where teh store was and almost fainted. The insides were ripped to shreds and there was a big window painting that said BURTON"S FINE GIFTS COMING SOON. I was so sad. this had been the best record store around since high school. I roamed around Covina and finally went to back to the store to say my final good bye. I realize that i am kind of emotional over a record store, but deal. Anyway as i looked closer i saw a paper taped on the window being covered by the Burton Monstosity and it said that indie had moved. OMG Saving Grace. I couldnt see the new location (damn you burton) but i got the phone number. Woo-hoo. They are now on the other side of Alpha/Omega across the street from the Mortuary in a way bigger store. Go KAOS Go!!!! any one have any Teaching Credentials they want to give me. Christmas and my birthday are coming up :) ok later Current Mood: cool Current Music: Weapon of Mass Destruction (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 25th, 2004
10:21 am	Thanks First of all just a quick happy Thanksgiving. The holidays dont really mean that much to me. But recently i have been going through alot and i just wanted to say thanks. Thanks to those friends that have been there trying to support and cheer me up. I havent always agreed with the support or the method of trying to make me feel better, and after thinking about and reading a few things i still appreciate it. I want to thank everyone for the good memories of this last year. We have had a lot of fun. I want to thank Gina for 5 and half years of love, friendship and joy. I learned alot and changed for the better because of you. Thanks to those people who arent jerks in daily life. It always makes me feel good to do something nice for a random stranger and i always feel good when i see a random stranger doing something cool for another random stranger. Thanks to the kids. The kids that i coach can really piss me off as individuals, but overall they consistently give me back much more than i can give them. Thanks to God. Yeah i am still pretty Catholic and i still belive. Lately i have been thnking some things that would probably get me under a 24 hour watch, but random other things pop in my mind to try to divert the bad thoughts. I think that something good is ever-present with me and believe that many thanks are in order for the life that i have had. Good to luck to everyone this year and keep your minds on other people. It really changes you. Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: soft whir of computer fan (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 18th, 2004
10:41 pm	in the dark ADVICE why is that word made made up of the shorten form of advertisment (hey actually it sounds like advice/advertisment hmmm) and vice which is something bad. Where is my career? i have the degree. that was my part of the bargin now life has to come through on its part. I just noticed the other day that i was one of 2 people at work that wasnt in upper management that had a college education. It bothers me. what the hell am i doing. It is amazing how one earth (or life) shattering event gets you questioning the whole system. Give it back. whoever stole it better give it back soon, dammit. the void is a loss and so am i why who knows and who really cares depression mild thoughts major feeling occasionally its easier to be be blank but peopel die so who am i to feel sorry what is teh human condition anyway is there a cure what ever happend to marie curie and was i the only one to like young einstein i mean he put the bubbles into beer i saw teh in a drive in i was in grades school i hated life then i loved it a few weeks ago what changed better yet why teh change and it comes back yet again ggrrrr holy crap you can post by phone with a paid account to LJ new respect but i digress in life so hopefully ill get back on track and actully get the things i wanted as a kid being family st. bernard and happiness. Stream of conciousness: and english teachers nightmare bah i dont know how to feel anymore, gina. Current Mood: gagglefax Current Music: none surprisingly (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 14th, 2004
2:59 pm	Aplogies I am sorry Bo and Tim, i didnt realize how it felt. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
2:32 pm	Assholes I have just read teh single dumbest, most idiotic and callous thing that i have erver come across. I dont know if it was meant to be funny or that the person is the biggest piece of shit out there. I am talking about the reply to my last post. I have been going through the hardest time in my life. The only person that i loved with every breath that i took and every thought that i had, broke up with me. I have been in the deepest depression i have been in since the early high school. I had thoughts that were well, lets just say dark and harmful. And this stupid fuck comes out and says "i dont see why you hung around so long." Fuck you. You arent my friend. My friends were there to support me, to help me, to take my mind off of everything that was going on. Not to debase the person that i still want to spend the rest of my life with. To insult her by saying that she has no personality is not only a great affront to me, but it shows that you didnt know her at all. If you ever took the time to take your head out of your ass and look around you would see that she had a great personality. Ask jon, tim, stephen, angie, jeff, cami, rudy, steven etc... All of these people saw some of the same things that i did. Yes she was quite and too a good extent shy. But also maybe she thought you were too much of an ass to talk to. bu she wouldnt think that because she was too fucking NICE. I dont know if you said this as a joke or what. But right now i hate you so much. a joke is "a skeleton walks into a bar and orders a pitcher of beer and a mop." not, well at least you are single and she hd no personality anyways, i dont know why you hung around so long. I sadi something stupid to angie at jeffis wedding about Honey and it was stupid and i feel really bad for it but i havent figured out away to apologize. I have been thinking about that almost everytime i talk to stephen and this has brought into harsh reality how much i could have hurt angie. Angie i am sorry that i didnt think before speaking and i have been praying for the safe recovery of the dog. I am sorry if im stupid insensitive words hurt you. But Brian, all i have to say to you is Fuck off, you arent my friend. Current Mood: infuriated Current Music: utter silence (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 11th, 2004
11:27 pm	I just changed my friendster profile from "in a relationship" to "single" I feel dumb (1 Comment |Comment on this)